I can’t explain
\nwhy I’m here
\nwhether by someone
\nelse’s hand-
\nor by my own design
\nI’m dying<\/p>\n
Shunned by everyone
\nI once called friend
\nbrother
\nsister
\nno one care about-
\nor for me
\nI’m alone<\/p>\n
Choices I’ve made
\nSteps I’ve taken
\nanxiety
\ndepressed
\nnot sure of the destination
\nI’m restless and traveling<\/p>\n
Easy to forge your own
\npath
\nmake decisions
\nnot look back
\nkept in the dark
\nno chance to save
\nI’m left to my own devices<\/p>\n
Haven’t had to include you
\nHaven’t called you
\nseen you
\ntouched you
\nand that’s ok-
\nI’m happy<\/p>\n
Clock’s growing late
\nplans were made
\ndeals sealed
\noffers made
\nquid pro quo
\nnow it’s time to pay up
\nI’m free<\/p>\n
No more pain
\nI can’t go any further
\nlooked for rescue
\nand none came
\ncold, cold dirt
\nhides the shame
\nI’m underground<\/p>\n
You couldn’t see I hurt
\nyou hurt me
\nwith your decisions
\nbut that only covered up
\nI was hurting myself too
\nI had an addiction<\/p>\n
I was suicidal
\nI was isolated
\ndepressed-no hope at all
\nBroken- didn’t believe in myself
\nHappy-this was a decision made
\nwith the utmost care<\/p>\n
I guess I can finally explain
\nwhy I’m here underground
\ndead<\/p>\n
Because I learned to lie-
\nAnd everyone believed me<\/p>\n
–Inspired by Ty Herndon’s
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