It’s going to get harder to stay this way.
\nIt’s going to get harder to explain why I’m this way.
\nIt’s going to get harder to say I’m fine with it.<\/p>\n
I’m not fine.
\nI say this unparenthetically.
\nIf I were onstage, I’d say it differently.
\nI’d have it marked – on paper – just as I said it.
\nI’d even probably stand up and say it as I stood up.<\/p>\n
As though standing is the problem.
\nI can walk and talk – just not feeling up to the latter.<\/p>\n
I like sitting and talking, but I like sitting
\nand doing nothing.<\/p>\n
I like it in the way I have time to wait for something
\nbut just for a few minutes and for something that is beyond my control
\nin a pleasant way. <\/p>\n
Like falling right to sleep after taking a pill
\nOr getting a buzz from a spliff.
\nOr a very well done martini.
\nOr an orgasm.<\/p>\n
Don’t talk to me about sex.<\/p>\n
Let’s just get through this day.
\nWe’ll have dinner and some small talk and
\nmaybe hug tonight.<\/p>\n
But I’m scared of tomorrow
\nI’m bored by tomorrow.<\/p>\n
I want to edit my responses
\nso they laugh in Minnetonka.<\/p>\n
No one in hell knows that there’s a man holding an empty glass on a stage in Hennepin County
\nlooking for the Host.<\/p>\n
Someday this will all be funny to me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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