{"id":90315,"date":"2021-06-26T12:24:56","date_gmt":"2021-06-26T16:24:56","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=90315"},"modified":"2021-06-26T12:24:56","modified_gmt":"2021-06-26T16:24:56","slug":"not-okay-hour-4","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2021\/06\/not-okay-hour-4\/","title":{"rendered":"Not okay &#8211; Hour 4"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I am not okay<br \/>\nSome of the hardest words to say<br \/>\nWhen all I want is to see you smile<br \/>\nJust a little while<br \/>\nBefore I walk away and close the door<br \/>\nTo find myself surrounded by my fears and sorrows once more<br \/>\nThe momentary shine I show you flickers<br \/>\nThe fresh-faced bloom of peace withers<\/p>\n<p>But God forbid that you should feel bad<br \/>\nIf you catch a glimpse of me sad<br \/>\nThrough these four words I must not utter<br \/>\nTo make you ache from knowing there is little help you can offer<br \/>\nI&#8217;d rather hurt in silence<br \/>\nIt does not matter<\/p>\n<p>How could I possibly express<br \/>\nHow important it is to me<br \/>\nThat you enjoy my company<br \/>\nRegardless of which face I wear today<br \/>\nI hope that you can embrace<br \/>\nAll my moods<br \/>\nAll my layers<br \/>\nAll my truths<br \/>\nAll my prayers<br \/>\nSo that someday<br \/>\nI might not be afraid<br \/>\nTo say that<br \/>\nI am not okay<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I am not okay Some of the hardest words to say When all I want is to see you smile Just a little while Before I walk away and close the door To find myself surrounded by my fears and sorrows once more The momentary&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1399,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-90315","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-miscellaneous"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/90315","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1399"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=90315"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/90315\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":90413,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/90315\/revisions\/90413"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=90315"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=90315"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=90315"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}