{"id":91695,"date":"2021-06-26T13:50:35","date_gmt":"2021-06-26T17:50:35","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=91695"},"modified":"2021-06-26T13:50:35","modified_gmt":"2021-06-26T17:50:35","slug":"hour-five-thoughts-on-condos-collapsing-out-of-nowhere","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2021\/06\/hour-five-thoughts-on-condos-collapsing-out-of-nowhere\/","title":{"rendered":"Hour Five – Thoughts on Condos Collapsing Out of Nowhere"},"content":{"rendered":"

Death is real,<\/span><\/p>\n

Though I\u2019ve never known it be.<\/span><\/p>\n

Rather, I\u2019ve never been able to make it real.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

To say I yearn for death wouldn\u2019t be quite right.<\/span><\/p>\n

My frontal lobe is buried under debris,<\/span><\/p>\n

But the rest of my brain cannot find it in the pancake layers.<\/span><\/p>\n

My frontal lobe is screaming,<\/span><\/p>\n

Wiggling its fingers in the cracks,<\/span><\/p>\n

But nobody is around to see it,<\/span><\/p>\n

Which means it must make no sound.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Have you ever had that dream<\/span><\/p>\n

Where you\u2019re screaming,<\/span><\/p>\n

But nothing comes out?<\/span><\/p>\n

Remember how hollow your throat feels?<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I want to get better, I do.<\/span><\/p>\n

I want to be rescued from this collapse,<\/span><\/p>\n

But I am running out of oxygen.<\/span><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

I cannot keep asking for help if nobody hears me.<\/span><\/p>\n

I beg,<\/span><\/p>\n

But the doctors do not believe I am sick enough.<\/span><\/p>\n

I beg,<\/span><\/p>\n

But my therapist is on maternity leave.<\/span><\/p>\n

I beg,<\/span><\/p>\n

But my friends do not have the tools to heal me.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Death is real, Though I\u2019ve never known it be. Rather, I\u2019ve never been able to make it real.   To say I yearn for death wouldn\u2019t be quite right. My frontal lobe is buried under debris, But the rest of my brain cannot find it…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2474,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-91695","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-miscellaneous"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/91695","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2474"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=91695"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/91695\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":91697,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/91695\/revisions\/91697"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=91695"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=91695"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=91695"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}