I’m fine
\nI’m OK
\nAnything to keep you
\nfrom learning the truth
\nmy dirty little secret<\/p>\n
I’ve fallen once more
\nruined my good work
\nand the bitch of it is
\nNo one will know
\nunderstand
\nor care<\/p>\n
I don’t know how to
\nexplain it to you<\/p>\n
It was an accident
\nsimply an accident
\nI didn’t mean to
\nI just scraped it
\nwhen I fell<\/p>\n
As I lay me down
\ndown to sleep
\npray that maybe
\nsomeday
\nyou will understand
\nand I’ll be free.<\/p>\n
Don’t try to save me
\nI’m beyond saving<\/p>\n
There is nothing that
\nyou can do-
\nI can’t be saved
\nSome people work that way<\/p>\n
Some people
\nare just wired
\nto hurt themselves
\nThey crave it<\/p>\n
Like a puzzle peice
\nonce missing
\nnow snapped into place.<\/p>\n
If you’ve never done it
\nYou won’t get it-
\nAnd that’s ok.<\/p>\n
I’d rather keep you in the dark
\nand have you blind than to drag
\nyou into my hell.<\/p>\n
Where things just don’t
\nmake sense and where
\npeople constantly accuse
\nand judge you-
\nbut you’re the one who punishes<\/p>\n
SSSHHH-
\nIt’s OK
\njust go back to
\nsleep-
\nEverything will be ok in the morning<\/p>\n
Now I lay me down to sleep
\nI pray the Lord to keep my soul
\nIf I should wake in the morning-
\nIt will be a miracle<\/p>\n
Huddled down there
\nin the dark
\ndesperately trying to breathe
\nIs this really how I want to live?<\/p>\n
I’m ok
\nI’m ok
\nI just have to get a grip on
\nmy anxieties and
\nput them away in the box
\nand tape it shut.<\/p>\n
Would that help?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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