The grip goes round my chest
\nIt feels like a pressure
\nSlipping up to my neck
\nBut the grip goes tight.<\/p>\n
I can’t escape
\nBut I don’t try
\nEither.<\/p>\n
For 2 months straight
\nI have drank one ounce more
\nOne shot more.<\/p>\n
Two nights ago I blacked out
\nSmeared shaving cream all over my coat
\nAnd vomited on the floor.<\/p>\n
I have been death a u up text
\nNightly.<\/p>\n
I am waiting for his answer.
\nTonight he does.
\nWith a tight belt and a tighter grip.<\/p>\n
I don’t want to die
\nBut I don’t want life<\/p>\n
I let the grip go tighter.
\nNo escape plans
\nNo clawing
\nI have determined the up is gone
\nAnd I am sick of descent.<\/p>\n
I awake.
\nHead throbbing
\nOxygen deprived
\nAlive.<\/p>\n
Death let go this time.
\nI hope he won’t again
\nAt his next midnight visit.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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