You were the child I never had<\/p>\n
We connected as you made me sick<\/p>\n
You were small, but I felt you<\/p>\n
You were athletic<\/p>\n
I knew when you were gone<\/p>\n
By the internal quiet I felt<\/p>\n
The ultrasound confirmed<\/p>\n
What I already knew<\/p>\n
I never gave birth to you<\/p>\n
I never had to feed or clothe you<\/p>\n
I imagine how you would look<\/p>\n
How you would act<\/p>\n
What trouble we would have.<\/p>\n
You would nineteen now<\/p>\n
You would be the college student<\/p>\n
Not me<\/p>\n
You would be growing into adulthood<\/p>\n
You would be falling in and out of love<\/p>\n
You would be finding your way in the world<\/p>\n
And I would be learning to let you go.<\/p>\n
We never got that chance<\/p>\n
For nine weeks you were real<\/p>\n
For 19 years you are imaginary<\/p>\n
I think about you often<\/p>\n
I think about what should have been, could have been<\/p>\n
I wonder where I went wrong<\/p>\n
I was unable to be a parent<\/p>\n
You were unable to be my child<\/p>\n
Maybe you watch over me<\/p>\n
Maybe we will meet one day<\/p>\n
Maybe our souls are still entwined<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
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