I’ve never been the type to make a fuss<\/p>\n
I keep my head down<\/p>\n
Let other’s walk in bigger and louder strides<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
And when he asked me if I wanted to call someone<\/p>\n
to help me<\/p>\n
I wish I had said yes.<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I was seventeen and thought I knew everything<\/p>\n
hard-headed<\/p>\n
self sufficient<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
But this was an instance where even the strongest people’s<\/p>\n
facades will crack and weather<\/p>\n
and crumble<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I felt the initial fracture<\/p>\n
and if I had said yes<\/p>\n
maybe I could have prevented the canyons that formed<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I wish I had said,<\/p>\n
yes, I need help<\/p>\n
but I didn’t<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I buried my face in a blanket<\/p>\n
and laid in the grass<\/p>\n
wet and cold on my back<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
An ice pack trying to soothe the swelling<\/p>\n
inside<\/p>\n
and I wish I had said yes<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Things turned because of the absence of<\/p>\n
yes<\/p>\n
I said No No No No<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
I pushed<\/p>\n
I pushed you have to believe me<\/p>\n
I shut my eyes tight and tried to breathe<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
No<\/p>\n
Yes<\/p>\n
Ow stoppit you’re hurting me<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Flashing lights and car alarms<\/p>\n
No<\/p>\n
No<\/p>\n
Please no<\/p>\n
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