{"id":99737,"date":"2021-06-27T01:20:22","date_gmt":"2021-06-27T05:20:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/?p=99737"},"modified":"2022-06-23T01:51:35","modified_gmt":"2022-06-23T05:51:35","slug":"i-am-begging-let-me-be-lonely-but-not-invisible-natalie-diaz-prompt-17","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/2021\/06\/i-am-begging-let-me-be-lonely-but-not-invisible-natalie-diaz-prompt-17\/","title":{"rendered":"\u201cI am begging: Let me be lonely but not invisible.\u201d \u2013 Prompt 17"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I care nothing about anyone to beg<br \/>\nI&#8217;ve done that before<br \/>\ndrunken<br \/>\nashamed<br \/>\nbegging why not me?<br \/>\nHaven&#8217;t I proven myself to be worthy?<\/p>\n<p>In your eyes<br \/>\nas if my own didn&#8217;t matter<\/p>\n<p>My sight thrived on how I lived in others minds<br \/>\nmaybe I can prove my love<br \/>\nwhen in fact it was never doubted<\/p>\n<p>I was always invisible<br \/>\nalone in relationships<br \/>\ncomplimented just enough<br \/>\nto be brave<br \/>\nknowing it didn&#8217;t mean that I wasn&#8217;t afraid<br \/>\nit just meant<br \/>\nI am here<br \/>\nfor now<\/p>\n<p>I am no longer<br \/>\neven present for myself<br \/>\nstill unraveling<br \/>\nin doing for my kids<\/p>\n<p>can&#8217;t even say I&#8217;m caring for them<br \/>\nbecause Im struggling<br \/>\nthrough my own mind<\/p>\n<p>still not begging<br \/>\njust moving<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m okay with being lonely<br \/>\nI find comfort in invisible<br \/>\nsometimes that is what I prefer<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I care nothing about anyone to beg I&#8217;ve done that before drunken ashamed begging why not me? Haven&#8217;t I proven myself to be worthy? In your eyes as if my own didn&#8217;t matter My sight thrived on how I lived in others minds maybe I&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":596,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7,13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-99737","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-marathon-poem","category-miscellaneous"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/99737","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/596"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=99737"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/99737\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":105814,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/99737\/revisions\/105814"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=99737"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=99737"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thepoetrymarathon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=99737"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}