It becomes another life in your head.
You can live that life out in your head those times when your main life becomes dull.
The best thing to do is not allow your main life to become dull,
But of course, that is easier said than done.
And once the longing begins it’s hard to stop it.
You don’t remember which life is which,
Which things you actually did and which things you imagined you did,
Because the other life feels as real as the main one.
And the only way to share this other life is through silence and faraway looks,
Because to speak of it would most certainly hurt someone.
And when you can’t speak freely of something,
Especially of something that feels so important, so real,
Despite its lack of root in reality,
You will most certainly go insane.