Inside there lives a monster

It wreaks havoc on my soul

to utterly destroy me,

is it’s final goal

The taste of it is pleasing,

as I take it in

Satisfaction for a moment,

I need it once again

Inside, I’m slowly dying

I cant resist the pull

It leaves me dark and empty

it never leaves me full

When I try to fight it,

the stronger it becomes

The need once again arises

and to it I succumb

I’ve prayed for God to take it

and still it takes a hold

His grace is sufficient

is what I’m often told

But I cannot resist it

on my own I often fall

So again on my Jesus

I make a heartfelt call

Will I ever rise above this

Or am I doomed to be

forever in its clutches

It’s slowly drowning me

I’ve even tried to hide it

but it grows larger still

It swallows me in darkness

this cannot be your will

Why can’t you take this from me

I beg you, set me free

I fear it holds me back

from all I’m meant to be

How can you look upon me

and love me all the same

when inside me grows a monster

that I just cannot tame