To know the difference
in intuition from fear
has been a great struggle

the signs were red
blinking

8 minutes later something happened
something I knew

I saw it
but I gambled
shrugging it to fear

Gave them a chance
when it wasn’t their turn
it was mine

I should have listened
should have noticed
should have said NO

I agreed
to betray my
own self

with a doubtful yes