The Poetry Marathon

thank you for showing me i still have my heart’s blood

left

to dip my pen into.

there are things left unsaid

there’re colours left unseen

time – the ultimate thief and conman – shows you all

and then leaves you hobbled adn chained unable to reach as it runs out on you.

he induced poetry in me.

reduced me to mere words

my love; my muse.

he lef tme nowhere to hide,

nowehere to find comfort

than where i’d always found them: in words.

i bled for him,

cried for him.

my heart and soul emptied out;

hollow,

empty

and now,

not even words left

to me anymore:

bereft.

’tis unfair, but a truth:

each time you break, you break somewhere other than you thought you knew how to heal/to deal with from before.

in this, there is no experience and practice makes perfect that will help:

each time you break differently, at a different spot,

And what you knew before, doesn’t work.

This is how you are altogether broken.

behold: the thinking man on his boulder, resting his chin on his hand;

he contemplates the pebble at his feet,

Concludes: The world is naught but the pebble and the pebble is worthy of care;

he sees the pebble;

in all it’s glory and perfection.

satisfied, concludes: I’m a thinking man, but can also feel, can also care – foor i care about this pebble.

—

The world-consuming fires finally arrive at the pebble at the thinking man’s feet;

he screams.

A youthful voice,

A young face,

– old eyes;

A Crone’s Sorrow, looking out of her.

hands are lead,

words are burnt:toast.

brain’s melted,

metre and rhyme lost.

But,

I can,

I will.

I do.

laughter

sunshine

joy..

play

hug

snort & chuckle..

—

catch his eye;

smile – warm

—

hug/touch – just because.

—

love.

—

: words that i’ve lost.

bleeding words:losing out from myself; my only friends.

fumble,

stumble,

fall;

dust-off, walk on.

—

rumble,

fumble,stutter,twist,

stumble,

fall – hard.

dust-off,

pause,doubt…

but,

walk on.

—

fumble,

wrestle,

struggle,

stumble,

fall.

pause:doubt,doubt…

walk on.

—

stumble

fall-hard,crack:

doubt,doubt,doubt

cower in fear; lie still.

but;

wrestle,

struggle.

and walk on.

—

stumble & instantly cower;lie still.

no fall but hard crack: doubt, doubt & cower in fear.

(doubt opens the crack for fear)

—

struggle, struggle, struggle

wrestle – win!

ROAR!