The Poetry Marathon

I Once Again Write About The Sky

I haven’t seen the stars in almost four months.

At least not ones that are actually in the sky above me in that moment.

Instead of I see miles of orange stretching across the horizon.

Not that delicious blood orange waves of

the sun tucking in for the night.

No, it’s that manufactured knock off of flames

covering the horizon until the sun returns again.

I’ve never gone this long without

the North Star pointing me home.

Too many people I don’t know can

see me surrounded by these streetlights and

I hear too many tires traveling across pavement.

It feels cruel that I can accidentally make eye contact with my neighbor

from each of our own living rooms yet

the universe gets hidden by an inventor long gone.

Texas SB 14 in Dada

per Tristan Tzara’s “To Make a Dadaist Poem”, 1920

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CW: misgendering (mention); parental estrangement

Getting What You Want Isn’t Always Getting What You Want

It’s funny how putting 2,218 miles between

me and her and her words and

their ability to nag at at my will to exist

Doesn’t actually put space between

me and her words.

A new phone number doesn’t stop me from

wondering how she took it all.

Trying to squeeze out every last drop of will to

not unblock her on Facebook to see.

Only to fail and realize you can’t block the same person again for 48 hours.

It turns out 4 months is

the space I needed to miss her for once.

Actually, 4 months to have what I know is false hope that

she could be a better mother;

One who uses the right pronouns;

One who tries to work within my boundaries.

Funny how those months and those miles, somehow,

got her to listen and to fit into my boundaries.

I had a bunch of tech issues this morning so I wrote a bunch of connected haikus while waiting for the router to reset

WIFI, why must you
foresee me like this in the
time I needed you most?

Laptop, why is now
the moment you decide to
do all your updates?

Why is it that all
tech knows when you need it most
and just stop working?

I would just take a
nap but, holy shit, that would
just be a full sleep.

One More

One more trip to the bathroom.

One more poem.

One last hour.

One more drink.

One more hit of my vape.

One more distraction.

One more pet of my cat.

One more fresh squeezed idea.

One more pen.

One more round of encouragement.

One last panic.

One more pet of my other cat.

One more time to not be able to read my handwriting.

One more Spotify playlist.

One last blog post.

One more notebook page.

One more snack to get me through.

One more emptying of my ashtray.

One more pet of my roommate’s cat.

One more train of thought is gone.

One more procrastination.

One more thing to say.

One last time to hit the Publish button.

24 poems in 24 hours.

Haikus

A haiku for you.

Five haikus for me tonight.

I can do them now.

Untitled

What am I if by

another name? I will be

who I was meant to.

Untitled

Take me on a date.

I will use puns to see if

you deserve another.

Untitled

Life is a McDonald’s ice cream machine,

always broken, and I am high in the drive thru at 2am.

I cannot check a McBroken that does not exist.

There’s no FTC to investigate.

All of Life’s competitors make sure to mock me on their marquees

being sure to remind me of what I cannot have.

A Vegetarian’s Nightmare

The long line of tail lights barely illuminate the

Parking lot that’s still too wet from earlier’s rain.

The sky has no moon, no stars,

only clouds drunk on the threat of more puddles

to fill this under cared for and overused drive thru.

The line creeps slower and my stomach louder.

I swear it’s caving in on itself at twice the speed we’re moving.

Once I’m close enough to the speaker to hear

shouts of my order reach the relic of Y2K.

One large Baja Blast and six spicy potato tacos, please.

Excitement mounting for the inevitable nuptials

of cannabis and tacos.

Static with a hint of human voice announces:

We discontinued potatoes as part of discontinuing breakfast.

Would you like to order something else?

I’m now a deer in the headlights;

A building being demolished;

The first balloon a toddler loses to the sky.

No more potatoes? No more spicy potato tacos?

My will to consume Taco Bell is gone.

Uh… I’ll take four cheesy bean burritos then.