You were never abandoned
I wanted you
to know
I planned to return

There was broken
off shards of glass
left in my heart

burning lights
head nods and kisses

I longed for you
I squattered in vacant houses
with you

Willing to be
nowhere to be found
as long as it was with you

You finished early
leaving me holding the books
by the class you never planned to attend
holding the keys to a house
you never planned to return to

It was you
who abandoned me
telling me to pick my head up

as you mind fucked me
masturbating my brain
with ideas
you had no intention
to perform

It was I who couldn’t see
until
I could
You were worse than where you started
and settled for tied sheets
between homes
when one was always enough

squattering your own respect away
over a place to stay
secured with false love

then you look me up
telling me its not what it was cracked up to be
when it was