TW:::
Deals with Eating disorders

Am I different
Do I look better
Are you pleased yet
Can I stop this ridiculous
charade

the clock’s ticking
time is going by
but you still
don’t see it
call me a drama queen

Five days
13 hours
the constant
craving’s still there
not as strong though

I can’t be what everyone else
wants me to be
It’s not right
It’s not going to happen

I know you want me to
have everything
that I could ever want
And I appreciate that
but it doesn’t change facts

You aren’t good for me
you claim to love me
but yet you hurt me this
way

six days
1 minute
I’ve reached it
my breaking point

I’m crawling along
on the floor
on my hands
my knees
Broken

You broke me
Satisfied?
Made me not
want it anymore

Take a second
just to breathe
Nope
Don’t want it anymore

Congratulations
damn you
I get over one addiction
Just to get fucked with
another one

Seven Days
I’m done
no more cravings
if they come up
I just ignore
them

Soon I won’t
be able to fight off
anything
not a cold
not an infection
not even diseases

Maybe you’re proud of me now.