The cold water washed over my aching, sweating body.

It was July in Sacramento California, unforgiving heat.

The clock proudly read 7pm, the heat was starting to give

Beads of sweat started to form on my forehead,

I shut my eyes, and let my head sink under the water.

Darting thoughts that I couldn’t ignore assaulted me.

I miss her, but I missed her more.

Fauna had Crystal

Fauna was with another woman making her writhe and moan

Feeling each other, feeling Crystal inside of them.

And I was alone, in a bathtub,

Trying to forget Crystal.

The elation and euphoria

I held my breath as long as I could

My chest burned

And I screamed