poem #5 underwater

what the shell said

when the water claimed me
took my salt & copper body
deep into its bluegreen throat
and swallowed me whole
I thought of my mother
how her tears would taste
of this same saltwater
how she would wail
like the rushing sound
of tidal surge around me

warmed by the sun
I could not see beneath
the ocean’s surface
water the colour of the sky
lifted me high
still wrapped in water
slammed me into ocean floor
and in my ears my mother
a whisper in a shell
calling me home

some visceral fear
tore from me
ripped by the tide
sank into the sand
and I spread my arms like wings
soaring underwater
into rescue

2015 poetry marathon poem #3 spawning season

It’s spawning season
You baited your hook carefully
They come into the shallows to spawn
What about the mommy fishes?
I worried
You won’t be catching mommy fishes
will you?
No mommy fishes, you reassured me

Even as you cut
into the glistening bellies
scraping the crystalline beads
of life into the water below
Even as you laughed at me

Even then, only weeks
into what would become love
marriage separation love again
two sons and a life together

you protected me
filtered my reality
through the lens
of your affection
Traded reality
for what might comfort

2015 poetry marathon poem #2 American wheat

in the granary, the single grains of wheat
float like motes of gold
sift through hot spiraling air
beneath the slant shafts of light
a sea of harvest laps
against the smooth boards
of the old silo

chaff softens the outline
of rusty machinery
parked where exhausted men
turned keys and tumbled
to wheat carpeted ground
somewhere in Arizona
a child tears a single piece of bread

2015 poem #1 tanka sequence

beneath ceiling fans
marking time like metronomes
I became ‘foreign’
Eastern, not Western
I would never fit again

even where my blonde hair
drew no curious dark hands
where my pleated skirt
looked just like the other girls
I was suspect, alien

that wood ceiling fan
began the process of change
circles circling round
the transformation of breath
the wings that would haunt & lift

hello from Britton

pan studyHi all ~

This is my study, where I won’t be writing. Instead, I’ll be joining you from Concepcion Abbey, in Concepcion, Missouri. This will be the 11th year I’ve been guest writer at a writing retreat there. It’s a lovely place, and the only cathedral (I think) west of the Mississippi. Benedictine, I believe. And don’t ask how I’ll manage to squeeze in poems while meeting w/ other writers! I suspect you’ll see a LOT of tanka, one of my favourite poems. And maybe a few landays, in honour of Afghan women.

For most of my life my jobs have involved writing: journalism, teaching, creative. Most recently I’ve taught adult education creative writing at my alma mater, which has been great fun. This fall, however, my beloved & I are making the move to Virginia to be w/our elder son, DIL, & grandson. We’ll see what that’s like. It may well come up in the poems!

Like last year (my first), I’m doing the half marathon. You all who signed on for the full are amazing (& possibly certifiable? 🙂 ). That was MORE than enough work for me.

I didn’t grow up in the US, so I’m very happy to see such an international crew of writers. Here’s to all of us brave enough to write with 330+ strangers!

 

12. my nieces and the bees

i.

My nieces bring me bees.

Strung on copper, hung from chains.

Each as different as my nieces

who do not know their own faces

 

ii.

While the bees   who dance in darkness

can map for any sister

the way home. Can fly on wings

stronger than maps.

 

iii.

My nieces build themselves homes.

With a lover, a husband, a wife.

Each love as different as my nieces.

Spring and summer, autumn honeys.

 

iv.

My nieces drink the tea I brew for them

in cups that were my mother’s

that fit on saucers my grandmother painted.

So many women.

 

v.

I drop honey from a silver spindle

trail it like the scent of roses

beneath bee flight. All the bees are sisters.

 

vi.

My nieces breathe in harmony.

Their dances full of light

the light filled with wings. The bees

work in the late summer

while my nieces inhale   exhale.

 

vii.

In the late afternoon, my nieces

ready for leave-taking. Fill sacks

with food I baked for them,

as if propolis was held within.

 

viii.

My nieces’ wings are music.

Each composes her own melody

She turns and spins within

the honeyed light of August.

 

ix.

My nieces make their own honey

as yellow as their towhead childhoods

as golden as their dreams.

My nieces work together in my kitchen.

 

x.

Early evening, and my nieces leave

for their own homes. Fold

their wings and walk upon the earth.

No one else knows that each

is part of something so much larger.

 

 

11. Someone else’s father

Someone else’s father

 

I took a road trip once, with Death

trying to hitchhike in my sister’s car.

A broke-back Chevy, neon orange

from its former life, highway patrol car.

We should have turned right. Taken

the exit to Annapolis. But the maps

to that life were written somewhere else

and we took the turn for nowhere.

 

She drove us down a guttered street

no lights, no houses. Boarded windows

like blind eyes watching. Listening.

Stubborn as only two sisters can be

we kept on going. Drove to the end

of the road. And with our backs against

the wall, we spun 180.

 

Too dumb to be afraid, we did know

to be careful. So we pulled over

stopped at the familiar golden arches.

The tired man my father’s age walked

out to the car, showed us the way home

and warned us: white girls don’t come around here.

Go home. Death, that sly bastard, rolled his eyes.

Found someone else to ride with.

Thank you, someone else’s father. Thanks.

 

10. Ode to steam

Ode to steam

 

I pull the shot.

Like a bullet to the brain, but soft

Is lightening ever soft?

In Việt Nam you listen to incense

A pentatonic scale

Can fragrant steam sing ?

The surface of the cup

shimmers with fragrance

The rich warmth of velvet

Can you drink velvet?

Condensed milk childhood

In Vit Nam they ice it

Can you freeze childhood?

Memories curl like steam

A boulevard   a café  banyan trees

Can memory carry me home?

9. Little Black Riding ‘Hood

Little Black Riding ‘Hood

 

He was stylin’

Struttin’ down Florissante

with his guys

in his woods

so fulla himself

he mighta busted.

And then he did.

Busted his head wide open.

 

That damn hunter

with his bigass gun

and his bigass attitude

shot my man

big wolf of a dawg

six times.

Until the black ‘hood

ran red with blood.

And no knife

going to cut him free…

8. Dear Auden

Dear Auden

 

You said they were never wrong

the old masters

but I walk through galleries

and any fool can tell you

all they knew was grief

 

Isn’t that wrong?

Shouldn’t there be

somewhere

paintings and sculptures

and music and weavings

filled with light?

 

How can I believe in you

the cadence of your art

its own heartbeat, its own darkness

when so much light is just beyond

the boundaries of mastery?

 

You promise life goes on

at least in the margins, where the boy

fell to earth and the dogs romp

and the horse is altogether happy.

But I walk through galleries

and I will tell you once again:

All I see is grief.