How?

It’s not two roads.
It’s not this or that —
But an open field with no set path at all.
So much possibility, too much to go wrong.
I don’t see the apple orchard up ahead or the elm grove to the right or a giant oak to the left.
I only see the slight decline in the middle of the clearing, like a valley
And remember the news said there’s a possibility of rain storms tonight
Which means there could be flash floods and that means
There’ll be a pool of water to drown me.
How do other people trick their brains?
Tell themselves the decline is not that prominent?
That I can take my time?
Find my own journey?
How?

Hope

Hope springs eternal until there’s a leak on the slip n slide of life.

Best to bring your own lube.

Earth View

The tallest house I lived in was two stories.
The tallest building I’ve been in was 102.
I’ve flown in the sky at 35,000 feet —

So high the people looked like dust.

The moon is 238,000 miles away.
Mars is 140 million miles away.
When I get there, how minuscule will people look then
When there is no limit to how high we can fly?

Whisper

Don’t talk too much.

Don’t play too loud.

Be the good little girl that whispers to her imaginary friends while serving them tea.

Mommy has a headache.

Daddy is tired.

Sister’s in the hospital.

Brother’s in jail.

Whisper to yourself that it’ll all be OK.

This tastes like…

Watch out for the bubblegum – its flavor, watermelon or strawberry, long

Ago popped away into a tiring state, set to

Labotomize the cement, filled with its own troubles of cracks and

Krakens the city refuses to maintain.

Instead, they invest that money in themselves and their

Nagging egos that balloon with each neglectful

Grant that promises to help the homelesspoordisablesdisadvantagedchildren

In a city that talks like angels but acts like fools.

No wonder we won’t give up our gas-guzzling cars,

Laden with quiet and calm and the fake scent of pine.

At least the bubblegum droppings are mine.

See how my garden grows

The dirt is destroyed from swaying years of care and neglect.

A layer of new sod with that green wire that doesn’t biodegrade

followed by no watering, no tending, no rinsing. Dust. Repeat.

But I dig down. First with the tiny shovel. Then the big one.

Then I pickaxe through the layers of my backyard Napolean,

Reading the stories of the owner’s past.

One tried roses.

One loved jacaranda trees.

One settled for ficuses.

Still I dig, to add to the tale –

Below the petunia,

I’ll plant the bones of my husband.

 

The magic of clouds

Up in the sky where the clouds mix with soil
Grows brambles of plumquat and shrouds of cosmonaut
On hedges and homes in emeralds that never spoil
As the chocolate scent of flowers dance and dip and plot
In the dreams of the people that never toil.
The vines wrap around and through till taut
Wrinkling the air to soften the garotte.

 

You scum

You, the pinkest of water lilies to be plucked. Me, the pond scum that gets tracked home on worn shoes whose soles have cracked apart and left to rot in a corner of a dark and damp garage.
Life’s not fair.

Can I return this?

No matter how hard I try, I can’t stop the sun from rising.

I can’t stuff it back into the box it came in.

Or return to sender.

I asked the moon to work a double shift.

And even called gravity to retire early.

Nothing.

They are simply cogs in this machine of life, too.

The only thing left to do is learn to enjoy it.

 

Last Night

Last night howling in my head

like the twist of a knife –

The unsure awkwardness

The tequila soda ramblings

The dancing, sweating, eyes wide open

To the ifs, buts, whys that never end.

But it does, it will.

It all will one day.

So let’s meet again tonight under the stars lest it be our last.