Head is jumbled
Thoughts rushing in
In the way
Where are you
Come back here
Go away now
There you are
Out of the way
Emotions rushing out
Head is clear
Tanya LaForce West
treal1971
Hi, my name is Tanya and, I was in the 2017 Poetry Marathon. I did the 24 then but I only completed 21 poems & in 2020 I did the 12. In 2021 I did the 12. This year I'll be doing 12 again. I used to write stories and poems all the time but I reached a low in life around 1992 and attempted suicide, I’m so glad I lived because I would’ve missed so much in my life no matter how good or bad; my experiences have taught me so much. I lost a fiancee in 1994 to drowning and then in 1998 I lost another one when he was hit while riding his motocycle. I have kids by both. Anyway I’ve been busy raising my kids and just trying to get back to me. I now have 4 adult kids; a son soon to be 29, who is now a stepdad and married, a 27 year old daughter who has a 3 yr old daughter, a soon to be 26 year old son who is married and doing well in his job and has a stepson he adopted as well as a new baby girl who is , and a 22 year old son with autism spectrum disorder. I myself became a new mom at 48 years old she is getting ready to turn 5 and I got married in 2020, my little girl was born 2 months early on December 17, 2018 through emergency c-section due to a placental abruption she weighed 4lbs 7ozs. She has brought such a light into my life. Thank you for letting me be involved again. I am excited every year now and can't wait for the marathon.
That Swallowtail Jig
There is a calling they say
All the night things must reply
The music of it all shall fill the night
A splendid sound it shall be
A story, a passage if you will
Of a joyous jubilant journey
Which must be fullfilled
This is the way of the night
An old sacred right not to be ignored
The rhythm and waves pour in
The journey becomes complete
As the music and night things become one
My Journey #10 bit late
Began this journey full of angst
A sort of frazzled interpretation at first
Maybe a niche has appeared
It is not the nightmare once thought
But an echo of past delight
Getting lost along the way
It was perhaps tantamount for growth
Constantly falling and evolving
Inspiration for a new beginning
To go forward and beyond impossibility
Surpassing fears that shouldn’t matter
While the ebb and flow commiserate
Swelling with emotions unknown
Waiting for words to meet paper
Here they come what a blissful release
Brown Recluse
What a wicked little beast you are
Scathing glaring glass beady eyes
Slobbering humongous fangs just waiting
Waiting to sink into my flesh
I abhor you and your hairy legs
Yes, I’m scared of spiders
But you, you are a nightmare of epic proportions
I can’t fathom your existence
Whose idea were you anyway, that’s just cruel
And that violin, why just why
Something so elegant on a hideous monstrosity
It is deplorable to think about
Writing about you makes me nauseous
And so I bid thee nasty creature a hasty goodbye
Breeze
Soft, whimsical breeze on my face
Do not leave the time is not nigh
Feeling refreshed enjoying your comfort
Contemplating how peaceful it is
So free you are, roaming to and fro
Oh to be one with the vast sky
I could just get lost and be free
Nothing to hold me back, just to be
Unsynced
What the hell am i doing
Feel like I’m digging deep
Pulling out words incoherent
Am I just on the surface of idiocy or can I shine
My soul is bursting to pour out
Inside out, outside in
Such a blur of misconception
Come on now bleed it out God this is wretched
All your life you’ve wanted to do this
The chance to ignite happiness, pain, or whatever
For Me!
Adrift
Set adrift
Where are we going
Somewhere together
Will it take long
It does not matter
Drifting away
But it does matter
How can it matter
What if we get lost
Still drifting
And what if we do
I don’t want to be lost
We aren’t lost if we are here
Drifting away
If we are here
Of course here
With each other
Set adrift
Untitled rough draft
There could have been more
Why did it become such a chore
My soul walked out the door
Strength just crashed to the floor
Do you ever wish for visions
And if you could see, would it change your decisions
So so many unanswered questions
Maybe my life wouldn’t have had so many revisions
Blow It Away
Put it in a bubble and blow it away
It must go, get on with living
All the hurt
All the pain
It’s not for you anymore
Life has taken so much
But you have more to give
All the roads
All the journeys
It’s time for you to begin
Stand up and shake it loose
Too much is headed your way
All the happiness
All the excitement
Put it in a bubble and blow it away
The Light
Standing alone wanting to dance
Bright
Warm
The sparks, I see them
Coming
Coming
Pouring into me
Pouring out of me
Dancing alone but I’m dancing
Exhilarating
Euphoric
The sparks, I have them now
Holding
Holding
Lifting me up
Lifting this weight
I’m dancing but not alone
Alive
Free
I’ll keep these sparks
Staying
Staying
Making me whole again
Making me dream