Ten years ago,
My head floated like a balloon
above everything
imagining the best.
Ten years ago,
my body worked better.
It has always felt weighed down.
But not like today
as it holds me prisoner.
Ten years ago,
Hope was still in every dream
Hope now is
erased in events and cynicism.
Ten years ago,
all was as it should be.
Ten years ago,
the world didn’t scare me.
It didn’t wake me up at night,
it didn’t cry for my help.
Today I see more darkness
than light.
More coldness than warmth.
More grief, more anger.
Ten years ago,
I was a shell of who I am today.
But shells are strong, easily cracked sure, but not easily broken.