Breathe

She let the sway of the workday move her
as people all around dictated where she went,
what she did there, and for how long.

She followed the crowd of “friends” to a bar
in which she had no interest, and made
small talk while snacking on chips.

She rushed herself back to the car,
counting on both hands the errands she
had yet to complete, while calculating
how long she might be able to sleep tonight.

She did it all, then she barreled through her
bedroom door, collapsed on the bed,
and took the deepest breath she might have
ever taken.

She felt it in her chest, her brain, her fingertips,
and all the way in the soles of her feet.
She let the relief flood her body as,
for the first time all day,
she was still.

Entry 11 Half-Marathon 01.00 EU time – Flutterings

.

I can’t churn out wind like a windmill.  I can’t

run from the warmth to the cold then back

again.  The sun looks different every morning,

and everything has changed sinced the day before –

the birdcalls, the blades of grass, the stones

beneath the earthbound feet, the clay heart, the

hands that knead bread dough at dawn.

 

You saw me, and then you saw me again, and

then again seventeen years later, and you said

I was the same.  That can’t be true.  I thought

I knew you, but it appears now that I did not.

Did you think otherwise?  Yesterday, you were

fearful, today you are sceptical, tomorrow you

will be senile and toothless, and very stubborn.

 

Let’s not try too hard.  Let’s not get ahead too

far.  Give me time to memorize the creases on

your forehead, the cracks in your voice, the shelf

where you store your precious blue-egg china.

Tell me where the spoons are, the kettle, the

pills for the morning and tablets for the night.

Tell me how you want your tea, the order of

your books, how you swim in the precious sea.

.

Change

why
do you
fear so much
what led to this
in your life what was so bad that fear rules you
it is time to change that old paradigm
you feel it too
not later
do it
now

ELEVEN (acrostic)

Parents should know better.

About who they leave their children with.

Perhaps they didn’t even care?

Answers would be nice

Regret, if truthful, would be appreciated.

Acknowledgement might even help.

Praying it would end.

Everything so twisted.

Dying inside.

My mother knew he did it before.

Evil comes in deceptive packages.

Our Home

Wooden floors that bend and creak,
cracks in the floor,
countless layers of paint
on the windows and baseboards.

Black and white tiles
in the kitchen
with faux wooden counters,
bright windows line half the walls.

Our first chosen home on our own,
since our friends moved away.
We picked it together
and moved our stuff in side-by-side.

You sleep next to me
and our dog sleeps by our sides.
We do laundry and sweep
and wash the dishes.

This is our home.

eleven

between the blinds a
moonbeam
highlights my coffee cup
steam rising in a hush

the screen door is locked from the inside
wet concrete sidewalk begging for a heart with some letters
the young fir tree
your book on my shelf
an empty rowboat banging against the dock

longing for the fog
that lingered after the storm
when you were still here

Temper, Temper, Temper

I am the kind if girlfriend who learns your Buttons

I know when it is okay to have some fun and push them.

I know when you’re not in the mood to play and this best to keep my button pushing at bay.

Tonight, I’m not trying to send you over the edge, but this here outfit is designed to send men and women, too over the edge

Couple it with my words put together to create vivid imagery…

I’m secretly pleading this isn’t the button that makes you call it quits

Cause I’m not playing games and I’m not trying to push any buttons

And I hope you remember, that it’s your shit I want to deal with

And no one elses.

But for now, it is time for the show and I’ve gotta go.

Hour 11

friends

my friends are godsent
heaven made
full of stardust and sunlight
truly otherworldly

their strength is better than the best wifi connection
their love is warmer than an overheated iphone
this support stronger than the u.s. backing israel

my friends are earth shakers
home makers
i am so lucky to have this village
so lucky to have this chosen family

Dear Roy Mark

 

Dear Roy Mark

 

You were brought to the world

With sheer idealism

Slowly you came to realize its otherwise

 

Forging time with life see the walls of lies

Threshing out the truth among the heart

Slowly the mind phantom of what is truly essentials

 

Look into the hard truths in every situation

Always look for the sliver lining in its limits

Kindling the heart to anew for new resolution

 

(Dear former self prompt)

 

Prompt # 14 Hour # 11

7:00 AM PHT 23/06/2019

Dear Me

Dear Me,

I know you cannot possibly comprehend
That I am your future
But trust me, I am
I see the choices you have before you
And I urge you
That when the time comes to choose
You make the choice that is right
Not the choice that is easy
While it may not seem like it now
It will impact every aspect of your life
For the rest of your life
I love you and
I need you to love yourself
And never
Never stop pursuing your dreams
With unparalleled love,

Me (your future self, 2019 Version)

(Book 99 #19337)