I’ve never been the type to make a fuss
I keep my head down
Let other’s walk in bigger and louder strides
And when he asked me if I wanted to call someone
to help me
I wish I had said yes.
I was seventeen and thought I knew everything
hard-headed
self sufficient
But this was an instance where even the strongest people’s
facades will crack and weather
and crumble
I felt the initial fracture
and if I had said yes
maybe I could have prevented the canyons that formed
I wish I had said,
yes, I need help
but I didn’t
I buried my face in a blanket
and laid in the grass
wet and cold on my back
An ice pack trying to soothe the swelling
inside
and I wish I had said yes
Things turned because of the absence of
yes
I said No No No No
I pushed
I pushed you have to believe me
I shut my eyes tight and tried to breathe
No
Yes
Ow stoppit you’re hurting me
Flashing lights and car alarms
No
No
Please no