Atom to Atom

after Natalie Diaz

 

I am begging: 

Let me be invisible 

but not lonely. 

Let this body fade 

into the night 

until I am but an atom

somewhere out there 

floating toward the stars

but let there be 

atoms that love me 

within reach

let their energy flow 

through me often enough

that I remember the likeness, 

not of their faces 

but of their souls. 

I am begging. 

Please. 

Let me be loved 

when I am not here 

for you to see.