A memory flutters
Sometimes
When I have forgotten
It goes, buzzes around
Till I try to catch it
Till I try to grasp it
In my hands
In my scarred, trembling hands
Only for it to vanish
Just leaving a whisper of laugh behind.
Bhasha Dwivedi
Bhasha Dwivedi
Hi there!
Hour 7: A Hundred Dreams Ago
I saw you a hundred dreams ago
There, back on that old wooden bench by the lake
I saw you as you were back when we first met
Just as stunning, just as ethereal
Time had taken a lot from us
The first memories and our youth
But how can it take away
What’s in our hearts since forever?
I saw you a hundred dreams ago
Just as the day when we met
Just as stunning, just as ethereal
And I fell in love once again.
Hour 6: The Dragon on the Branch
High upon the tallest tree
On the wooden branches
Perched a dragon
Looking out into the sea
It’s wings all curled up
(I wonder how big they must be)
It’s scales gleaming in the rays
Of setting sun scattered through the sea
And I looked and looked at it some more
While waiting – for something to happen
For it to move or lean or stretch or..
Anything really!
But still it sat with wooden eyes
On the high branch of the tree
Just, simply, plainly
looking over the sea when–
The ringing classroom bell brought me back to real life
Where maths problems were the reality
And dragons on branches existed only in crevices of bored minds
Imagination fueled by lack of fantasy
With a last look outside the window
I sighed as I moved on to another story
Entirely missing the dragon on the branch
Finally unfurling it’s wings and flying towards the sea.
Hour 5.5: Cozy Corner
After a long, long day
When exhaustion has seeped deep in your bones
It comes to your rescue
The cozy corner at your home!
It’s tiny, barely enough
But it has space for all your treasures:
A hardback copy of your favourite book
And your knitting gear on the oak table
A perch for your wine glass
With just enough room for a plate
Of sunflower seeds and maybe
Cheddar Cheese, if the day was extra tough.
And of course, hidden under all the blankets
Will be your satchel of knick-knacks
For the days you are longing
To relive a part of the past
Of the days long gone when you had
More as a way of comfort
Than just your cozy corner
Tiny, barely enough to hold your heart.
Hour 5: For Hope
When vines took over
Everything stopped
Moving, breathing, existing
Only the strangling pain
The suffocation lingered in the air
Darkness descended
On eyes, soul, life
Without a shred of light
And no struggle whatsoever
Could unbind, unravel
The vines encircling the heart
In a vice like grip
Until, reaching out
A tiny hand in the dark
Pushed against the window
To outside, to remembrance, to freedom
And just a sight of that
Limitless eternity was enough
To tell the forgotten heart
The vines aren’t where you belong
Aren’t your happiness
And should you choose to fly
Wings await you to take off
Towards the infinite sky
Hour 4: The Old Piano
The old, dusty piano
Sits in the corner
Tucked away amidst
Spirits and vines
Its keys are lackluster
The sound off tune
Yet it only needs
A slight brush of fingers
To hum back to life
It’s resilient
With age, it grew more so
Refusing to give up
Even in face of modern keyboard
The old broken piano
The old bent piano
The old nostalgic piano
The old friend… piano.
Hour 3: Settle
The mountain mist settles
Revealing winding paths with no end
The lofty winds carries
Our wishes up these paths
Towards the lonesome tree
Of red and pink
Under the clear blue skies
Where life meets eternity
The wish is simple
It’s doesn’t want much
Just a simple touch
Of that flower which blooms
But once
Up those winding paths with no end
Hidden in the mountain mist
That never really settles.
Hour 2: The Darkest Evening of the Year
(Title line taken from Robert Frost’s poem “Stopping by Woods”)
The darkest evening of the year
Didn’t fall in December
Or even one of the colder months
No, it came in suddenly
One bright May day
Stricken with grief and loss
The darkest evening of the year
Has nothing to do with sun or weather
It has nothing to do with presence of light
Just the absence of hope
And life and dreams
And you and me
The darkest evening of the year
Is the one where we lost
Our home, our safety, our peace
The one where I lost you
The one where you lost me
And we both lost a part of ourselves
The darkest evening of the year
Didn’t fall in dreary December
But on a bright May day
Full of warmth and false sense of comfort
That one bright May Day
When the light of love disappeared.
Hour 1: Drowning
Down,
Down we go
Struggling
Losing
Losing hope
Down,
Down we stay
Still
At peace
At peace with fate.
Down.
Down the hand
reaches
Taking hold
It won’t let go
Up,
Up we go
Towards life
With hope
Hope to endure.
Hour 24: A Small Space
A room with purple walls
Decorated with childish hand-made posters
Exactly three anime mugs
And various knick-knacks
Of all colors…
The mis-match, the chaos, to me
Is what feels like home…
A small space to exist
And just breathe
Without worrying about
The gazes of others.