Painting the picture
Having those crazy thoughts
wondering if I am going to make it.
Not wanting to run lose
Gaining control of all the pain
Wanting to lash out and cry again.
Letting all those feelings slide
I woke in panic that I didn’t die.
All those rampant feelings
Trying to make me feel like losing control
wanting to wake up from this nightmare
Oh please I don’t want to die and just be my soul.