Painting the picture

Having those crazy thoughts

wondering if I am going to make it.

Not wanting to run lose

Gaining control of all the pain

Wanting to lash out and cry again.

Letting all those feelings slide

I woke in panic that I didn’t die.

All those rampant feelings

Trying to make me feel like losing control

wanting to wake up from this nightmare

Oh please I don’t want to die and just be my soul.