My Mother’s Vice
she won’t say much except she liked tobacco
its calming effect on her nerves
maybe she once imagined herself
Katherine Hepburn, cigarette in hand
accoutrement for deflection
parochial school carpool queen, cigarette hangs
from her lips, one arm expertly steers
the other swats noisy uniformed kids
crammed in a container of school sweat
cured by suburban menthol
when we were old enough to talk back
we shamed her habit, badgered this
choice need desire to smoke
a felon then surfaced, hiding her vice
stomped out evidence
patio of solace, snuffing a dying butt, she falls
a dislocated hip forces intervention
a thirty year nonsmoker, she still tastes
pleasure, rush of nicotine washing
her brain, softening daily discomfort, details
(reminds me of my own numbing vices)
––pride punishes another generation
June 26, 2021