Under The Surface Poem 4/Hour 4

Under The Surface
By: LuvMiFreely

This growing pressure
That choking feeling in my throat
I feel it all building up in my chest
My emotions at its breaking point
My outer appearance shows no sign of damage
Not one crack present
Can’t allow myself to shatter
I’m the strong one
Ash, keep it together
I’m ready to fold
Expectations high and failure isn’t an option
I’m forced to carry this load
I buckle and bend
But somehow I don’t break
I guess I was made to handle any burden
Take on any fate
Although I take what I’m handed and never question it
Doesn’t mean it’s not heavy
And that it isn’t weighing on my spirit
I’ve conditioned myself to smile
But under the surface I’m drowning

Crown Poem 2/Hour 2

Crown
By: LuvMiFreely

Freedom pours from the roots of my scalp
Expressionism, free formed from the creativity of my Black mind
Folks try to dictate how I grow, wear, and style what’s rightfully mine
They claim it’s lacks professionalism, it’s unkempt
Untamed
But what grows from my head isn’t your right to claim
They find ways to strip away our Black culture
Wanting us to cut our hair, abide to their rules
They copy our style and treat us like vultures
We can’t even wear our own hair while playing sports or even at school
Freedom isn’t free when it comes with regulations
Rather it’s natural or loc’d
How I rock my crown isn’t up for debate 

Escape Poem 1/Hour 1

Escape-Sonnet
By: LuvMiFreely

Today is a stressful day
Mind on overload
Heart completely drained
Nervous system feeling like it’s ready to explode

Looking for a way to calm my nerves
Everyone has a vice
But there’s no need to be concerned
My drug of choice won’t ruin my life 

As a matter of fact, it welcomes me
So clear and translucent
Always willing to set me free
Its comfort always feels heaven sent

Doesn’t matter if it’s flowing from a faucet or provided by the rain
Water will always be my greatest escape 

Follow Your Dreams (HOUR 24-FINALE)

Follow Your Dreams

By: LuvMiFreely

(HOUR 24-THE FINALE)

You can’t bring to fruition 

the seeds you don’t plant

What you don’t nourish 

just won’t grow

Stop telling yourself what you can’t do

and choose to push forward

In spite of what may be mounting up against you

What’s for you, will always be for you

Even if you fail along the way

It’s better to have tried

Then to not put in the effort at all

Don’t be afraid to rise

It’s your season…

…SHINE

Goodnight

Home Stretch (Hour 22)

Home Stretch

By: LuvMiFreely

(Hour 22)

Lights out

Yet my room is illuminated

The morning sky reminds me 

I’ve made it to the home stretch 

The birds are chirping outside my window

I’ve convinced myself they are cheering for me

22 hours down

My eyes are heavy

My body craves sleep

Yet my hands rest on my keyboard

Tapping away at the keys

Clearing out the last of my thoughts

Before darkness becomes my peace

Late Night Thoughts (Hour 20)

Late Night Thoughts -Tanka Poem

By: LuvMiFreely

(Hour 20)

The moon welcomes me

My black hoodie zipped uptight

Night breeze blows freely

Destination is unknown 

Going where my soul leads me

Self Portrait (Hour 19)

Self Portrait (Reflecting)
By: LuvMiFreely
(Poem 19)
34 years of self discovery
Only to discover I’m still learning about me
I’m no walk in the park
I’ve been through situations where most would have folded
Pieces of my life that I wish I could omit
But I have to admit
I’m a fighter
A survivor
Fatherless due to his drug addiction
No father/daughter dances
No answers for any of my questions
He died before I could ask them
Half of me is missing
And I’m still trying to make sense of it
Abused at an early age
I would blame myself everyday
For mistakes clearly not my fault
But I embodied the pain
Somehow telling myself I deserved it
I hid behind my smile
Sometimes I still do
It’s easier to say I’m fine
Than to explain my shattered life
And expect people to actually understand it
I’m trying to undo the years of damage
Healing from apologies not given
Learning to tell myself when people walk away
Not to blame myself and forgive them
Learning that no one can love me quite like I can
And that I deserve to be loved without suffering
Reversing the negative energy placed on me
So forgive me if you find me a bit complicating
But in order to get to know me
You have to understand at times I’m jaded
I have a good heart
Just trying to get back my glow that was taken