Two: Dead Name

Dead Name
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Write a poem from the point of view of yourself, ten years ago.

They say that objects in the mirror are closer than they appear,
But you are a blind spot filling my entire rear view.
I know the texture of your name like an echo on my tongue.
I don’t hear the same voices you heard
An unfamiliarity in the screaming spaces between our breaths,
I split like a cicada
Tearing free from a skin knit too tightly

Were we ever as one?
Because I feel like I’ve always been shedding you.

 

One: The House in the Middle of the Road

The House in the Middle of the Road
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(tw for domestic violence)

There is a comfort in a porch light
How it welcomes us into homes unfamiliar
Following the road signs of a new relationship and keeping between the caution lines
We process the yellow as warmth instead of warning
Don’t see the pathway pre painted to swallow us whole
We are drawn to the light
Because we are taught that light is our salvation
Centered over a doorway like a third eye
Windows black like bars but we don’t see the prison
Just the warmth overhead, like an angler fish, luring us in
Before the door slams shut behind us and the beatings begin.

 

13… Koibito (a sedoka)

Will you come to me?
Evenings and again, my love,
to cherish at the sun’s set?

I will come to you,
through the dawn and back, my love,
a worshiping moon.

11… Kellerman’s

Tip toe

Around the abortion

And the premarital sex between white kids

And deviant reputations

Tip toe around

And don’t put your heel down.

10… Cough

Tiny boy
Big cough
Breaking heart
Endless night
Canceled plans
Cuddled toys
Scooby-Doo
Popsicle favorites
Mama’s kisses
Daddy’s arms.

8… Candle

Flicker flicker
Bicker Bicker
Blessed be and
Cure what’s sicker

Fan the gospel
Fan the flame
Praise the Force and
Sing her name

Wonder Women
Equal.  Free.
Carrie Fisher and
RBG

7… Tumbler, (a duotrain)

Red and orange
Blue fern leaves
Golden petals
Dancing breeze

Tumbler tumbling
See the joy
Remembering water
Love employ

Tiny wonder
Chilling core
I’m not thirsty
You are more

Perfect balance
Joyous heart
Floral Tumbler
Stands apart