Hour 12–How to Conduct Oneself In Public

no untoward loitering

so one must place one foot

in front of the other

(no jaunty angles)

be dignified

the above action not to resemble “dancing”

unless one is within a licensed dancing

establishment

Hour 9–Arguing With Dylan Thomas

Do not go gentle into that goodnight. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

[Why? Huh? That’s what I want to ask. Shit, I’m dying! Don’t tell me to pull back. You moron, I’m a toddler in the doorsill. Don’t tell me to change direction. You think you know more about this shit than I do? What the hell? Why shouldn’t I go gentle into that goodnight? To please you? It’s always gotta be about you? Fuck! What more lovely way to go than to go gently? What comes next? You don’t know any more than I do. Don’t tell me how to do it. Why do you get to define what experience I have? It’s dishonest. Why should my dying be about you? Get out and don’t tell me how to die. I was halfway there, and you pulled me back. Don’t tell me to rage. I’ve fought, I’ve struggled all my life. This is my time to relax, shithead. Get real.]

Go ahead, feel free if you like. Go gentle into that goodnight, embrace as you wish the dying of the light.

Hour 8–Hunger

We need Denny’s to deliver breakfast

We need scrambled eggs and roasted red potatoes with onions and sausage and peppers, ya know, their Ultimate Skillet

We need Starbuck’s to deliver coffee, strong coffee

We need ideas, maybe even useable metaphors (if we dare)

We need to remember we’re in this thing together

Hour 6–The Hesperus Wrecked

It was a tragedy.

She was the captain’s daughter. She was found in the dim surf tied to the mast of the wreckage. Her bosom was white and her long hair swirling. I was 12 and a boy and the bosom thing is mostly what I remember and she was dead. Her father had tried to save her and thus killed her.

And I was dying up in front of the class. Miss Hepburn as our English teacher had made us each memorize two thousand lines of poetry. We had to recite on command. Procrastinator, I, I faltered badly there in the surf with the captain’s daughter. I couldn’t rescue her or myself. I couldn’t remember the words.

As if I had a choice I chose the greater humiliation. I broke down and sobbed there at the blackboard. Miss Hepburn told me to take my seat. I did so sloppily. Relieved it was over, I cried quietly at my desk. My colleagues were embarrassed. They backed away. Fear of contagion. The whole school would hear.

It was a tragedy. It was my introduction to poetry.

 

 

Hour 4–Modern Age

looking up from my salad

four out of five people sitting at the next table

gazed at screens

cupped in hands

my cell phone rang

Hour 3–Small Fry

Dad wasn’t there that day

wouldn’t have been interested

so Mom filled the role gladly

did the dad-thing by

renting a row boat

she took us boys fishing

because boys needed to do things with worms and hooks and poles

and feel the thrust that oars made against water

it was a lake near a discount store with a highway going over

not exactly Nature

not exactly fish fish

sunfish

little ones

even smaller in the frying pan