Dear Pastor;

I know that I’m not
the easiest person
to get to know –
to get close to
I appreciate that you
even try to.

I know that I am not
the best example of how
to live a godly life
I might swear
I might drink
Hell, I might cheat
I am human

I have my dark secrets
that I am far too ashamed
to voice to anyone
so I keep quiet
What would you think
if you knew THAT about me?

You have never turned
me away and you
have never once said
“Sorry, can’t help you”

You have, however, always
cheered me on, listened, and tried
your best to help me.
I’ll let you in on a secret

Sometimes, that’s all that keeps me
alive.
When I don’t know from one breath
to another
if my decisions are going to save me
or kill me.

I know that there have been
a handful of times
where you wonder if anything
you say or do is getting through
and making a dent in that thick
shell of mine.

Yes it does.

There have been so many times
where things you say or do
make me stop and realize that
I’ve got to stop living for man
and start living for God.

Truth is, Pastor, I don’t know
what I would do if I didn’t have people
like you in my life to help steer me along
thank you will always sound insufficient
but it is what I have to offer.

Thank you.