As a friend

as a lover

I saw you

sleek

kind

beautiful

perfection itself

 

I don’t know

how to

get around you

To stop feeling

this way

you’ve always been

there for me

 

You are my comfort

my companion

when I was down

you picked me up

 

It’s kinda like

love that

hurts

burns

stings

 

you torture me

with your love

you fill me with

holes

emptiness

unbalance

dispair

 

You ask me

if I still love you

At first I couldn’t

even answer you

Then the answer

came so clear

 

I can’t love you

anymore

your love

stings

burns

hurts

Not like I should

be treated

 

I should be putting

one foot in front of

the other

walk away from you

But I can’t

 

You’re too hypnotic

to refuse

like a beautiful chant

like a drug

your hold is beautiful

 

I don’t want to love

you

I bleed when I do

but you wont let go

even when I want you to

 

How can you claim

to love me

care about me

cherish me

yet do this to me

 

That’s the only thing

you do

is hurt me

I don’t deserve it

I don’t need it

 

I’m breaking away

running like hell

in the other direction

away from the

pain

dispair

emptiness

from you

 

Taking back my life

don’t want me to

but I am

I’m sick of being

in pain

I’m done with you

 

I’m past this shit

I threw you out

of my life

I’m not looking back

I refuse to

 

I’m shaking like a leaf

not from fear

but apprehension

from anger

I’m done

 

You act like

you have the right to

walk the fuck back in

to my life

like everything’s

going to go back

to normal

 

I don’t need you

don’t want you

can live independently

of you

done

 

How’s it feel

to be kicked to the curb

be told you’re not needed

told there’s no place for you

 

Burns don’t it

stings don’t it

hurts don’t it

Just like your love for me