melancholia 

is my master

memories 

longing lost love

rudely ripped away

just as it was

beginning

such sadness 

memories

drown me

can I be

forgiven 

hidden regret

colors everything

around me

wistful

fleeting 

glimpses

of joy

stolen happiness

leaves my past

forever gone

away

with him

our secret

i’ve paid for

with 

the rest

of

my life