She knew what would happen and guessed at her wants,

They must be one and the same:

Find a good school, find a good man, take a new role,

Take a new name.

 

She strove for stage one, twelve years since age four,

Studying, perfecting the grade:

no late night parties, no stupid friends, always smart choices,

always what’s safe.

 

College was looming when he asked for a kiss,

Shocking her breath away,

Pause just a moment, pause for the feeling, but she’s not his,

but…

she won’t stay.

 

One kiss on her lips and the college years done,

What happens when the plan falls through?

Stop waiting for him? Stop wondering if? Find your own want?

Find a whole you?