29 two kids a husband at war kidneys not functioning as they should 3 different nephologist diagnosised it doesn’t look good

Mother’s illness is chronic why is mine end stage insides filled with angst fear and rage

Regardless of fear I had to be strong hold on tight for how ever long baby girl writing notes about never forgetting me..did she know my time was ending for a fact.       Old people believe babies and animals can predict stuff like that

You can’t imagine the overwhelming lost I felt so to ground I fell and on knees I knelt

To the heavens I prayed,just a little while longer Lord,oh please let me stay