Dead from the inside I am numb.A complete shut downunresponsive to the external.Immovable, life wasting away.Tired eyes and hungry heart all dead in a row.No thirst to quenchno dreams to conquerpowerless in one waypowerful in another- nothing affects me.Nothing to lose,no fear, no feelings, no attachment, no sorrow, Just the bottomless pit of nothingness -encroaching.
infectious and familiar
It feels comfortable, I am doomed anyway, Damned if I do,Damned if I don't.Hopelessness looms like a shadow. Wasted life, Wasted years,The Pointlessness of the point,at the edge of reason and lingering disappointment.Far from any harm,removed and isolateddetached and unemotional, I let that shit go. Only to dive deepHead first into the chaos of living.The madness of emotions.The passage through life.I am waking up,Undoing these chains that have held me down for far too long.I am becoming human.I am living. I open the doors and let it surge.-Janice Raquela Mendonca