I’m going emotionless again
Shawn messages after two months
of mutual silence, I hear the ding
and sigh, knowing it’s him, knowing
he wants to talk, knowing I can’t
take his words and make them new,
let myself fall, his lies nipping
my ears, trying to take hold.
So I stare at the screen and blink,
forcing fingers to still, a screen to stay
cold, keeping silence instead of spilling
that my emotions are long-gone too.
This poem evokes for me an experience of estrangement and heartbreak and choosing to resist entanglement. I enjoyed reading it.
How wonderful it would be to be that strong, to not give in, to dash the hope that flares each time that one’s name is mentioned, seen, or alluded to. Nice imagery, Katie. You captured fear in one of its many personalities. Good job!