I’m going emotionless again
Shawn messages after two months
of mutual silence, I hear the ding
and sigh, knowing it’s him, knowing
he wants to talk, knowing I can’t
take his words and make them new,
let myself fall, his lies nipping
my ears, trying to take hold.
So I stare at the screen and blink,
forcing fingers to still, a screen to stay
cold, keeping silence instead of spilling
that my emotions are long-gone too.