Laying on yoga mats

he strums and whistles

calls out to his ancestors.

I close my eyes hoping

my crush comes through.

Instead I see a beach

full of tiny sea turtles

over and over

with doubled rainbows.

Accept it’s his kid brother

and now I watch as he surfs

in El Salvador.

After this channeling ends,

the Shaman asks of our experiences.

Stephanie on the other side of the room

describes how she was a sea turtle swimming inside a funnel.

I smile knowing together we surfed with Tommy.