Why couldn’t he handle it?
I knew he couldn’t
deep down I knew
but, I didn’t
It’s not the kind of thing
you tell about on
your first date
but still
I knew but I didn’t think he
I thought he couldn’t
he didn’t ask
didn’t say
anything but ‘Oh wow’ I
could take but then
‘oh wow’
became ‘Oh’
‘Oh’ then dissolved into
silence even his
breathing just
said ‘oh’
Neither of us could
hang up
the damn phone
just ‘Oh’
I’m not even sure
either of us
said goodbye
couldn’t
I didn’t even do it
I didn’t kill anyone
my mother
did
in self-defense
protecting
me, from dad
me, us
All he could say
was ‘Oh’
even my mom
liked him
She knows why he
couldn’t – not
wouldn’t
could not
But I don’t
At least, that’s what
I have resolutely
told myself
for forty years
that she wrote in
her diary.
It would all be the
truth
because, God knows
all I could say by
then was
‘Oh.’
– Mark L. Lucker
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Thanks, Amanda.