I used to think
That everyone would get nervous in a roomful of girls
That it was perfectly normal
To have your heart skip a beat
When a pretty girl smiles at you
You just want to be friends, right?
I was assuaged
By the “correct” feeling for boys
Skipping hearts
Blushing cheeks
Irony has always been best appreciated
In hindsight
There was a girl
A close friend
Who delicately removed my shirt
And painted on my bare back
And I guiltily imagined what it would be like to kiss her
I had dreams
Where my hands and lips
Betrayed my desires
But how much could a dream mean anyway?
And then I held her hand
And leaned into her laugh just a little too much
And followed her to her bedroom
Where she curled into my side
And tilted her beautiful smile up to me
And I finally fucking realized
lots of questions with this one although I’m pretty sure where you’re going : ) Great job at piquing my interest