Hour 6: And Sow, the Garden has Grown

Hour 6: And Sow, The Garden has Grown

(an adapted villanelle)

 

The taste of the word love was ashes in my mouth.

The chewed up, spit out fuel feeding someone else’s flaming desire.

I sowed my garden with it, and things grew.

 

In the early spring, when it was new,

we shoveled compost and turned the earth,

but the taste of the word love burned like ashes in my mouth.

 

Seeds were planted in abundance and with the expectation of bounty.

Even as the rains came drowning our passion,

I sowed my garden with it, and things grew.

 

The heat rose, and as it baked, the earth burned.

Tomatoes stripped of promise by horned caterpillars,

and the taste of the word love lingered like ashes in my mouth

 

By fall I had lost most of the squash.

Their rich potential wormed away by resentment and neglect.

Still, I sowed my garden with it, and things grew.

 

There were late season pumpkins, ripe and buttery orange, more zucchini

than I could bake into bread, and a surprising peck of green peppers.

The taste of love left ashes in my mouth,

yet I sowed my garden with it, and things grew.

Gentle 

Warmth pressing red glow encouraging first glance,
Back embodied passing defragmented mind,
Inner core soft level ground for a fluttering purpose.
Pressing smooth opening inside both one to another,
Enlivened top and bottom, awake below,
Held inside, tingles of bodily happiness then release.
Cradled by holding – seen and recognised.
Tendons and sinews tighten for needed moments
Returning to refractory lightness
Chest breaths easy in open flows.
Lips curl at corners as safety unfurls.
Gentle eternal recurrence welcome this day.

The Grace To Blossom, 2nd Hour

2nd Hour

The Grace To Blossom

He gave me another chance,

by grace, to blossom;

to breathe again.

knowing I would fall,

he held the seeds of my new birth,

and set them in a dry place.

I withered and died.

 

Far from Him, I tried to seek my own life,

wallowing in regrets and strife,

he waited until my eyes

grew blurry and dim unable to survive,

without Him.

 

Finding no pleasure in this foolish escape,

I was lost and

could not rescue  my soul,

I had lost control

getting lost in unfamiliar rhythms – sporadic beats,

discord and unsung melodies,

that altered my path.

 

I was blinded by a world I did not recognize,

yet not caring if I lived or died…falling…lying in

my vanity.

 

Unguided choices threw me into a

cistern of drowning consequences,

recompense for rebellion and doubt.

Yet His love guided me and lifted me out,

righted my fall when on His name I called

and praised Him for His mercy.

 

I found favor as He rescued me from dried places,

in this seed were no traces

of life to stand.

Yet, by His command,

he planted me by refreshing waters,

Restored, He gave me another chance to blossom,

to breathe again.

 

 

 

 

 

2020 Hour 6: Perfect Day

2020 Hour 6: Perfect Day

 

Time-Infinite

My wrist watch, high on something sassy and chilling out

Using its hands to knit a sweater for the sky

And giving the atomic clock the finger.

 

Weather-Cold

Breathe in, blow out the chilled air

My bare hands ice packs that I hold to my cheeks

To remember that I’m alive.

 

Activity-Walking

My feet have mapped out the city

Footprints repeated through the maze of blocks

Treading each like friends who meet, hug, and depart.

 

Status-Solitude

Quiet is both my companion and shadow

Broached occasionally by a cacophony of my thoughts

Which walk with me arm in arm.

Hour 6 — The Alarm (Clock)

Beth A. Fleisher

Hour 6

 

Prompt 6:  My Own. 🙂

 

The Alarm (Clock)

 

Clearly, the inventors of alarm clocks

and digital phone alarms

to start the day

had a skewed (or totally screwed up) psyche.

How else would they have devised such torture?

On a daily basis, no less!

You’re in deep REM sleep,

maybe in some lovely dream space,

and suddenly there’s this loud, discordant noise

jolting you awake,

dragging you from the dream!

Heart thumping, you look wildly around,

until gradually the blood gets back to your brain

and you realize what it is.

Reaching for your phone,

you smack the blinking X to make it stop.

Ahhhh. Blessed silence returns.

You snuggle back down in your blankets, hopeful…

…but, really, do you have any prayer of returning

to that magical, mystical dream space?

Nope. It’s Gone Forever.

Thanks a lot, stupid alarm!!

Fishing with Jimmy

Brothers on the Bow River

on a cool spring day just outside of

Calgary, Alberta, Canada.

Wading up to our knees,

we feel the gentle drift of the current

and hear the swish of our flyrods.

We savor the sweet taste of cigars

and watch our smoke rings evaporate in the air.

I admire the long float of my Green Drake

as it travels hither and yon down the blue water.

Standing there wishing this would never end,

I realize it doesn’t matter if I catch a trout at all.

4. 2020

  1. 2020

 

We had such hopes. We still do. The predictions were too perfect to be true. Valentine’s on a Friday, to plan the perfect overnight date. Cinco de Mayo on Tuesday. Did we set the bar too low? Only looking to celebrate holidays that we reduced to chocolate and tacos trying to fill our bellies and not our souls.

 

A new decade. Despite the political turmoil we felt hopeful. New year new dreams to wash off the dust of 2019, we sought the feel of a jubilee year, perhaps hoping to finally lift off the mask of the past to see things as they are not only as we hoped.

 

2020 proves to be the unveiling we needed, not at all what we wanted.

 

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Note of vetiver
Splash of amber
Hint of tobacco

Breathing in
The scent of you

My very own Proustian Moment

It lingers on my clothes
Shoved to the bottom of my laundry basket

Unable to be suppressed
Sparks play with my synapses
Linedancing to my limbic system

Engaging my emotions
Mesmerizing my memory

Electrifying the skeletal structures
Of ideas left derelict

A warm diffusion
Radiating in the hollow caverns of my chest

6 – Teenager (2) 2020

He wakes in early afternoon, washes his face, pokes around in the fridge – doesn’t eat, lumbers to the ps and sofa, yawns, starts it all up. (Summer schedule.). He is big, tall. He hasn’t caught up to himself, probably won’t  for a few years.

He is quiet, shuffles through messages, invites, “streaming conditions” .Social obligations covered, he engages me, the maker of food, and bringer of stuff he needs and wants (teenager equations), “Gramma, how long have we been sheltering at home? I think I need to find some people. I need some people.”

His profound self actualization jars me, “I think I need some people, too, but it isn’t safe to be around other people yet. I’m sorry.”

“Well, let’s be more peopley with each other then. Let’s bring back game night.”

He jars me again. When exactly did game night stop…? “Yeah, let’s bring back game night. How about Friday nights?”

Yeah. Friday nights.”

He plays video games, watches anime, streams for a while… finally eats, reads part of his summer reading book assigned back in March when the world closed.

“Cam, are you ready for game night? Want a pizza? What game do you want to play?”

“I thought you said Fridays?”

“It is Friday.”

“Well, you wanna just watch me play this with my friends instead… and eat pizza?”

“Sure, Buddy. Will that be peopley enough for you?”

“Yeah, that works. We can play games next Friday.”

He plays until 2am. I sleep on the sofa next to him. We people together.

 

Elizabeth Fellows

6/27/2020, 8am