She asks, “Are You Okay?”

Yes, of course

Well, sometimes

But also no,

never at all

 

I’m tired of faking the smile,

Of pretending and eggshell-walking over your

Quarter-century of doing the easiest

While I suffer the consequences on the other side

 

So no, I’m foul

Almost always

And every of the time

But yeah, I’m okay

 

(Hour 12) 

Hour #12: A Conversation With the Moon

Even though I’m talking to you, Moon…do I believe you are listening?

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I am between relying on a planet and a moon right now…Neptune is a runner up,

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though pretty hard to pin down. Like you, so watery and sort of ADD when it comes to clarifying my path.

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I don’t go for celestial bodies that keep me in the dark. This darkdeepvastswimmyplace energy has followed me my entire life. I curse it. Sorry to be rude!

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I’ve been known to be swimmy too.

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I know I ask you, Moon, for answers, then change the question. How can I expect you to answer?

 

 

The Closet (Hour Twelve)

The downstairs closet is our haven,

When storms blow fiercely through the town.

When the sirens sound so loudly,

It’s time to hunker down.

Thankfully my fur babies,

Like to follow me all the time.

We wait it out together, until things are clear and fine.

Mountains

Giants never walked the earth

Giants never breathed the air

Giants never ate of the land

Giants never drank the lakes

Giants built the earth

Giants compressed the air

Giants served the land

Giants collected the snow

We are ants

Living on the shoulders

Of giants

Hour 12: Sequoia sempervirens

The smallest I’ve ever felt

Was standing beneath

The world’s tallest trees

 

There is something innately humbling

About seeing a being

That has lived hundreds of years before you

And will live hundreds after you’re gone

 

I told someone once

That I hope I am reincarnated as a redwood one day

So the world can spin around me

While I watch

As a guardian of the fog

Endings

All things end
In the end
Time moves on

In the end
All things change
Life moves on

All things change
Such is life
So we grow

Hour twelve

Closet

In the closet,
She dreams of escape,
Snow covered lamp-posts
And talking fauns.

She dreams of hiding
In fur coats,
Burrowing deep into warmth.

In the closet
She is her real self,
Free and brave and strong.

In the closet,
She is safe.

Hour Eleven: Baking Bernice Bread

Don’t throw away those

stale slices of squashed bread

still in their plastic sleeve

squeezed into the breadbox

I’ve merged three loaves and

When I have a few more slices

I’ll check for mold and

Cut rectangles across the rest and

Dip them in a butter bath

infused with minced garlic

The oven will bake them

For snacks (not croutons!)

Chased by sweet lemonade and

We’ll remember

 

Before Bernice died

In her 96th year

She taught us

To not give up

on what may seem stale and

of no possible use.

There are still tasty treats and the sweet life

even in someone else’s trash

 

When we share the bread —

a holy communion of laughter — with

each piece a Bernice story

We remember together her garden

that only blooms in our memory

Her ceramics we can hold and

touch, reminding us

how warm and full of life she was

 

We are consumed with the laughs and memories

As we remind ourselves of her strength

and our weakness

How she climbed 3-foot snow banks

while we searched to find an easier way

The time she was 90 and

we worried when she didn’t show up

when she was expected and

discovered after she finally arrived that

she’d climbed atop the garage

To retrieve what had fallen there and

put it to use

before someone threw it away

 

Upside Down 12

On Thursday I had a strange dream

The trees and gardens were in the sky

All houses and streets were upside down.

The rivers were flowing on the earth so high

The oceans were glittering and glowing

With high waves and foamy waters flowing.

I sat in bed and looked outside

If this was really true but what would happen

If the sky was below our feet and we were

Hung in the sky? The law of gravity

Should apply and then sun will kiss our feet

We will be all hung upside down and never

The twain shall meet! I am going potty now

It is time to catch up my sleep!!

My Away Space

I would crawl into it
to get away from the world
all its noises and lights

I’d pull the door shut
tight behind me
slide the clothes aside

bury myself behind them
tucked into the dark
my breathing slowing

sometimes I’d hear
my mother come calling
hear her walk into the room

I stayed still and quiet
holding my breath
until she left

then I would exhale
unfurl myself and return
as though I had never been away

[Prompt Twelve: closet]