Early Dawn
The early dawn today
with almost no hint of light
is met with
slamming doors
binging truck
revving engine
reverberating motorized boat
cawing crows
squawking jays
croaking bullfrogs
roaring jet plane
inkling smoke
quieting worry
24 Poems ~ 24 Hours
The early dawn today
with almost no hint of light
is met with
slamming doors
binging truck
revving engine
reverberating motorized boat
cawing crows
squawking jays
croaking bullfrogs
roaring jet plane
inkling smoke
quieting worry
The Visitors’ Office
A full moon hazed by mist
Illuminated the night.
Sentinel spruce and fir trees
Stood to attention along the winding road.
An information booth stood between two lanes—
More windows than bricks—
With its lights competing with the moon for brightness.
No one was present,
A blank page in a library of nature.
Cindy Herndon
The Garment of Yesterday
“after Diana Khoi Nguyen”
“The past draped around us like a cloak.”
Fabricated memories
Offered warmth and protection,
But it weighted us down
And kept us from flying toward tomorrow.
A butterfly does not carry its chrysalis
As it flits from flower to flower.
A frog does keep its tadpole tail
While it jumps among lily pads.
A chicken does not carry its shell
When it roost at night.
Perhaps we too should shed our past.
Cindy Herndon
The daily longing of my words
shelter the fear inside
keeping me from the thing I am
it’s becoming harder to hide
It is my life, it is my heart
I live for the joy it brings
when I cannot find the words I need
the disappointment really stings
Sometimes the words are right there
so plentiful, my heart is so overjoyed
I can’t get them down fast enough
it fills my empty void
There once was a time that no words were there
I can’t imagine how that ever was
my words are my life, they are who I am
no greater definition of love
Early morning, in the quietness of my mind,
I see your luring light as the yellow lines pull me towards you.
Still relishing in my unvarnished thoughts of you,
pure
honest
The leftover night air begins to lift as I try to wrap this goodness around me.
As I get closer
a waxing storm stirs,
the debris within me comes rushing,
thoughts I haven’t seen in months rattle against me.
Sirens blare, I brace myself, becoming uprooted, my branches now bare,
this torrential storm of emotions pulls me down, tears at my clothes, tangles my hair, gnashes my skin.
You just stand there, shining your yellow eyes on me.
Antecedents
I walked into the morning
Sun not yet eyes opened
weight around my shoulders
a black hole sucking me in
heavy hands pressing me \
curling
head bowed
The first seam of light
split over the horizon
drawing me up
I lift my chin
release night’s cloak
antecedent’s grasp
A new day sanctified

In the deep water
sinking to oblivion
I dissolve myself
Eight years old and
Frozen in a candy store
Aromas of cherry
And licorice
Wrap around me
Like a corset
I’m crushed in
An avalanche
A flood of colors
A cascade of chocolate
This deluge
This ocean
This bottomless
Pit of possibilities
While my sister
Gently without hesitation
Cinderella-esque
Chooses just one
Steps to the register
Her eyes neither right nor left
And I feel like shit
While my mother says
“Hurry up, Leroy.
There are people behind you.”
Awake
I knew not where I traveled
When I took upon the road
The path was lit by moonlight
Through clouds it barely showed
And although I had forever
Although I had the time
I knew Charon asked a price
Something not yet mine
Ah I certainly could fake it
As I approached the starting line
Yes I certainly could fake it
But I’ve yet to reach
That phantom starting line.
The ranger awaits me distantly
With energy sublime
And although I’m starting later
I’ll get to them in time.
Just a phantom toll booth
A journey for a child
Like a story sought today
With twists and turns quite wild
And I feel the shakey start in me
Jubilant and mild
Yes I feel that shakey start in me
Like a jubilant young child
And though I’ve yet to reach it
The journey will be wild
I may yet return to here to pay Charon his due
But for now this is my whole tale, I’ll leave it here with you.

Sometimes I smile
because the monster
in my head is quiet
no one the wiser
But then there are times
where it runs loose and
I smile because the
real me shines through
See?
See the real me yet?
I’m not normal and
I don’t need your pity
your forgiveness
or apologies
I don’t need your
accusations
I don’t need to explain
myself to you
Don’t need your permission
There are times where
that monster escapes
and I am mortified because
the real me shows up
and I can no longer hide
Then I get over myself and
think-
Fuck it-
accept me or don’t
I am so sick of you
thinking I have to be perfect
we both know-
that’s not going to happen
Damnit!
The monster is trying
to get out again
NO!
Stay inside!
These people can’t handle you
My mind is such a mess
insane cesspool
all the boxes tipped and spilled
I’m so ashamed of
the monster
He’s dragged me down
twisted me violently
every which way
The monster wants
to be heard
not silent
lonely lonely
wants a friend
or two
The walls I’ve built
so high are crumbling
down because the
monster wants to be
heard
I can’t let you out
You’ll only hurt the ones
I love
I don’t care if you hurt me-
I hate what you have
made me into-
I am at war with you
I can’t afford even a
moment of relief-
because it will be
the death of me
Sometimes I smile
because the monster is quiet
and asleep
and I appear normal and happy-
And no one is the wiser.