Wish .. could change..

Keep in touch or keep me away,

I wished to have followed whatever you had said…

Just to let you know,

I on myself could have never left nor go…

Would have continued to spend my entire time by you,

Obeying each and every thing that you wanted me to do…

May would have been spending my days, thinking of you,

Or living the nights, by your dreams like true…

For you had become as that of a habit,

Without which neither the life nor even a part could exhibit…

You by now are so much in me,

I see you every time, when the reflection of self I see…

Have known you so much to think as an entire life,

No amount would be less, if try to ever term it a sacrifice…

Nothing could ever be compared or be greater than you,

For without you, don’t even know what else I could ever want to do…

But surely forcing would not even be the last thing on my mind,

Rather than making you follow, would want to devote you all of mine…

So,

Would have at least kept in touch and not away,

I surely would have followed whatever you had to say…

Mystery

Under the stars
beneath the trees
along the road ahead
A light shimmers
to bluish life
an intoxicating mystery

Hour 14- Baby Sleep

The heavy lifting blood pint draining sighs

Frequently blinks and shutters the lids

The lazy sight beholds flickering lights

Going on and off like a lightning bug

Body laying numb lifeless in the colt

Months preparing an opening a crusader gap

For an outlaw streams of saliva

And a deep-rooted grunt

Filled with melodious snore

Sizzling at many minute intervals

Of final loud loud moan

And a deep journey to Oblivion

The lids closes

The blinking stops

But the snores remained.

 

Hour 15….yesssss’

he got down on one knew

i held my breath

my mind froze

then raced years ahead

yes i love you

no i want explore the world

no you want to stay

a wild jumble of hope and dreams

on fast cycle

yes, yes,yes

Hour 15 – Yes (text prompt)

Each answer we give changes the path we take

Whether we say yes or no or nothing changes fate

And sometimes I think about the times

Where I should have said yes.

When I could have made things better

By following my truth, er rather

The truth

Letting myself free for things

That weren’t my fault

And accepting responsibilities

Like yes I can lead that project

Or yes, I can stomach College

In Chicago, far from family

With many student loans

To get a degree that I desired

My life would be quite different but maybe

I’d be happy… or worse

Maybe I’d still be sad, but alone this time.

Hour 15: Two Haiku

The stargate awaits –

Step into the other side

Of the galaxy!

 

Or should I dial home?

Return to the known and safe?

Forego bold journeys?

Just Say Yes

Fifteen years old and full of life
Full of spice
Full of things not understood
Fifteen years old and wished I had
Just said yes

Eighteen years and feel so old
Decisions made
Time to leave home
College can wait I naively voiced
How I wish I had just said yes

Twenty-two and one marriage down
Not what I expected and now
Not what I want
Come with me and we’ll be fine
I should have just said yes

Twenty-four and wandering, wondering
Which way should I go
Posters say to join up now
See the world and learn a skill
Why oh why didn’t I just say yes

Come home for a bit
They said to me
Figure things out and then you’ll see
A happier person you could be
And still I didn’t say yes

Forty years later and all alone
Mistakes I’ve made do not compare
To living with a person who just couldn’t care
Who wanted me to be a person I was not meant to be
Why couldn’t he have just said yes to me

Hour 13: Right time

The time is coming
The final round
I see the light
Grab my hand

I see the stairs
Wow, it has finished
Death comes at the right time
Leave the world behind
Look upon the hopes ahead

I meet my saviour
My creator
At the right time
Oh Death, thank you