Softer Dangers ( Hour 15)

Quieter enjoyments promised in a simple friendship, 
softer dangers that might leave you hungry, 
too afraid to not be on that imagined stage, 
for fear of missing something that might never return.

To yield from the fiery starblast, 
thousand-armed thunderclouds, 
booming fierceness, 
a fight that holds my curious, dreamer-eyes awake.

I should have said yes to your extended hand. 
Played at life from round dining room tables,
behind locked doors, 
with security at a phone call distance.

Should have stayed safe from darkened streets, 
stripping eyes that never saw me, 
but saw only movements living in the lamplight alley.

Should have said yes to a hidden tomorrow,
gifted, preserved, outlasting the hormonal rush to die all at once, 
rather than slowly losing myself in the years that came.

The book is closed, 
time is an old window that only stares out over the ocean. 
waves ripple where memory blurs, 
not many changes back then, 
I can only say yes to how I see it now.

Cerises Douces, California

Cerises Douces, California

 

Pitted cherries sit on my counter, waiting

for me to eat. Mommy carved them, little

pumpkins that she never cut

and made glow as I grew. I stab

each cherry and taste the bitter

juice, and remember the rising

of the fork in the light has the same

leap and fall of the heart she made me.

Reimposition (Hour 15)

In a bowl of Nos,

One Yes could have been drowned.

That is not a contest for the wrestling ground.

 

This moment has created a world of its own,

distant from the gray past

that can no longer embrace colours.

 

Eyes are truly ahead of me.

Ears picking whispers from the past and present.

Head no longer of a victim of dithering.

 

In that one deep bowl of Nos,

my one Yes could have stood out,

loud, bright, truly differentiated.

 

So I have watched that one Yes drown,

to adorn the belly of the sea.

So I will say Yes again,

like the endless waves of the sea.

 

 

 

Written from the text prompt of Hour 15.

Half vs Full

The  forbearance of leaving

My friends at the half

Seemed logical

 

There’s a new princess

Due anytime now

the Poetess thought

 

As her heart longed for words

Long after midnight

 

That magical time

where headphones rock her

through to the morning light

Alone

 

Though not through her plight

those Word Temptresses

Still sauntering by

Clasping my hand

Saying “come let’s write”

Faith–10pm

Things were going good-
everything was in place
no reason to suspect
anything was going to go wrong

That day, started off ok
How foolish I was then
to think that she’d be ok
I was wrong

I had to explain that she was
gone- I had to entertain people
be around people when I didn’t
even want to be alive

when all was said and done-
I had to say that
I guess this is where I
will find out if I believe
what I say I believe

Some people said that I
had no right to be angry with
You God.
Others said that they understood

I say that it’s ok to be angry
with you but that one has to
come back to you after and
apologize.

I tried to. And I think I did ok
you’re all powerful and all
knowing-
you saw my anger before time began
its not like it was a shock to you

 

Hour 14: Hurricane Season 2020 (All in the Family)

Hanna was the first to grow into a whirlwind,

Touching Texas, flashing floods,

Leaving powerlessness in her wake

Texas couldn’t handle Hanna after all.

I could have told them

Hanna don’t play

 

Isaias was a killer, moving too fast to get out of his way

Like Hanna in the southwest, he sucked power from the east.

Isaias had an identity crisis,

Couldn’t decide who he was.

He stormed through the islands,

Touched land as a whirlwind

And twisted again as he traveled north

Away from the sea

Who knew when he was born

That he would bring death and destruction?

 

Laura and Marco, almost twins,

Born in the east.

Laura, born first, was weaker.

Marco grew up before she did

But he weakened faster,

And did not linger before he was easily shoved

Aside,

Before dying.

 

Laura, unorganized and inhibited,

Would not stay put.

As Marco weakened,

She slowly gained strength crossing Cuba,

Her strength intensified as she wandered

To Louisiana and drenched it,

Taking power and flooding like her older siblings.

You can’t trust first impressions.

 

Nana grew up in South America,

An introvert, she stayed away from crowds,

And like the mayfly,

was lively for only a day.

Paulette was a zombie

Who rose from the dead

After brewing up a storm.

Sally struck hard and strong,

Making an impact

with her rushing water and wind.

Simple Sally was not flashy.

Teddy was a slow one,

Gradually growing stronger

Before reaching his peak

And deflating quickly

But don’t tell him he’s impotent!

 

Then there came the Greek twins

Alpha, like her sibs,

tried to spread herself

But fizzled out

It’s hard to take her seriously.

Iota had to be different,

Adding mud to the flooding.

Such a show-off!

Little angel

Indeed a first ray of sun,

Towards us from the heaven had come…

Stars studded in the eyes that shine,

Would rule the world with her sweet charming smile…

Those tiny little eyes,

Tried to speak more than twice…

Calmness on her face,

Will surely embrace the grace…

Melody’s of her voice,

Are surely to spread happiness and rejoice…

Thou tiny now do seem her hand,

But its grip will not let apart any relation to strand…

With such small are those feet,

Yet willing to attain the maximum possible speed…

Rolling down from arm to arm,

Raising the voice acts her only alarm…

Finding comfort in all that she’s laid,

At utmost comfort her voice too does fade…

Anxious is such,

Listens to all with un-uttered words,

Don’t know if understands as such,

But yes does not wink her eyes too much…

Such a magnet is she full of grace,

That eye get stuck forgetting times pace…

Yes could’ve been better | Surya T | Poetry Marathon Poem 15

I remember the time, still fresh in my memory
After all, how can one forget regrets?
A senior asking me – wanna learn the guitar?
A waste of time, I replied to him
and declined his invitation

Fast forward 3 years, I found myself in a music store
Looking for a guitar for my guitar class
Hoping that I’ll learn it quick enough
and regretting saying no when my senior offered

As I watch Joe Satriani effortlessly jam on the guitar
I stand in the audience
wondering why I didn’t say yes then

As I watch my teacher talk about shredding
I sit with my guitar strapped to me
wondering why I thought it was a waste of time

As I decide to make compositions
I keep exploring on my guitar
wondering the 3 years would’ve helped me a lot

As I decide to play more songs
I wonder what the hell I was thinking back then
What was so important that I abandoned music

Surya T

Rainy wedding day

I had already said yes
Under the Brooklyn Bridge
A sunny day
Where my face melted away
Leaving my hidden skin
Uncovered
Beneath.

We stood,
Arguing
Drenched in rain
Unable to agree
About having kids
Now that the rings were dispersed
Vows uttered.

He asked if I wanted my key back.

We drank instead
Until 4 am
And Irish step danced
And drank more
And barely could got in the car home.

Later
The beatings
Later
More drinking
Later
Abandoned
Pregnant.
Homeless.

One missed answer.
It should have been yes.

Do you just want your key back?

Yes.

Do you want me to turn and leave while we annul this mess?

Yes.

Yes.

After a year I did get my life back.
Somewhat.
But I never got
That damn key.