I have been awake for more hours than I can count on both hands, twice

What little sleep I got, wasn’t what I was expecting or hoping for

I wanted the…”my head hit the pillow and I was passed out in less than 2.1 seconds”

but instead

I laid there, with my eyes closed, listening to the poems trying to write myself in my head

Like needy children, crowding me, demanding to be heard

I wanted to give them all attention,

I wanted to write all of those words and send them off into the world

But instead, their buzz, the sound of them flying around

was the lullaby

that finally put me to sleep