EVERY TIME I’VE LEFT
every time I’ve left
I was right to do so
maybe not right in my words
my thoughts or my deeds
maybe torn up, shredded
on expectations and disappointment
maybe savage and ferocious
lashing out in my pain
but I know something now that I didn’t know then
I needed every wrong turn, every misguided step
to find the places where my joy was real
and when I was finally there, in a place where I was happy
I knew I was always going to make the next right move
even when everything else around me was wrong
because that’s all I’d ever done
just like every time I’ve ever left
so that someday, I could arrive
Lovely, just lovely. ‘I needed every wrong turn, every misguided step’ is a wonderful line. I truly hope you arrive.