You kept me up last night

When I should have been sleeping

Against my better judgement I clicked on the link to your life

(Because our lives are simply the result of someone’s search engine)

And there you were, in all your glory

And glamour

Beneath the lipstick, the leggings, and the long, black hair

I try to find you, I try to find the face that haunts me

That I’d rather not remember

When you were my brother.

You change your looks and you change your name

But can you change your memories?

Because I cannot change mine

No matter how hard I try.

I can’t actually

Ever go to sleep.